For this final post, we are asked to reflect on what I have found out about myself and my creative process, whether or not I have experienced moments of ‘creative wonder’, and in what ways my perspective on graphic design practice has changed.
What I’ve found out about myself: I can be pushed, and I do perform well under stress, however, I strive for a balanced life and so there’s a line I wouldn’t cross in my pursuit for a meaningful career and my attempt to create a valuable body of work. I refuse to let any kind of pressure interfere with my health or the quality of my personal relationships.
This quarter, I was asked (by myself of course – all that I’m discussing are personal choices or decisions) to adapt to a challenging new job that required skills way outside my comfort zone, to create unusually and unusual work, and to revise said work beyond of what’s possible within the 16/17 hour a days I had allocated for productive pursuits. I am glad to say I survived. How well I’ve done remainns to be seen.
I have experience a moment of ‘creative wonder’. I set out to do a satire on social media using facebook as a platform. I realized at some point that I was creating personal work that was reaching more people than I had ever anticipated it would, involving very little actual ‘design’ and using a medium I used to loath… And I wondered.
I created a website that was meant to engage users in a very interactive way. Part of the concept was the mystery and the vagueness. I thought it didn’t work so well, I though my assumptions, my biases were a little too… Biased. I am finding out that testers worked to solve the site to its last page, and these testers never bothered to give any feedback back then. I forgot what I knew about the lonely intellectual types I had in mind when I came up with the project.
I was constantly overwhelmed by the work of my classmates. I found out that I had some expectations, or lack of expectations that were proven wrong almost every time. I will refrain from naming the individuals and the projects that – mostly -overwhelmed me.
I was reminded that I am in search of a purpose in life, that I would like to make a difference. How do I manage this urge with my very high priority on setting time for personal and family investment, I do not know yet.
There a fire that has been rekindled somewhere deep inside of me. I hope I can avoid sleep deprivation. It makes me cranky.
To whomever reading this blog from 701 or 702, thank you for a great semester.
Rachid signing off for tonight.