Umami

I am beyond excited about this project. I have woken up from a deep sleep thinking about it. I am constantly brainstorming and researching for it. I really think that it could be a great idea. I am so, so excited, but it is not the productive type of excitement.

It’s the type of excitement that makes me pace and move things about. I feel anxious. I am in a frenzied state, the part of my heuristic bias that I would like to change. I don’t know if I am being contacted by my creative genius or daemon or muse, but he/she/it is a pain in the ass and a poor house guest.

My most productive moments have been explaining to others and hearing whether or not they are understanding what I am talking about. Also, reviewing my peers’ work has composed me and made me think about my own process as they think about and describe theirs. Doing research for a paper for another class also refocused my brain, made me stand back and refocus.

I am extremely nervous to show my peers my “uglies” because I admire their work and sketches. Oh, the sketches! Nupur and Will had sketches that were absolutely gorgeous. I have chicken scratch that probably only makes sense to me, slapped out while my brain works faster than my hand. They are good evidence of my sketchy process that I am in the middle of right now, my excitement and rather unnecessary suffering that we discussed this week in Unit 4.