After one year, I finally take the moment to update my SCAD blog.
Before I update my whole SCAD Life in several blogs, I want to post my new experience and realization after visiting the Empire State of New York.
- The Gene Allcott foundation awarded me with an all expense paid trip to New York. There, I had the opportunity to visit important museums such as the MoMA, The New Museum, and the largest museum in the U.S., the Metropolitan. I was honored to receive this award April 05th – 09t where we stayed in a 5 star hotel! (my personal rating) The whole experience is told in the photography series post : Gene Allcott Foundation
Anyways, during my visit I came across China Town, Little Italy, BellaVita wellness studio, Times Square, Central Park, the Chelsea galleries, Soho, Greenwich village, upper east Manhattan , OUT XL night club, and multiple Gucci & Prada stores. - long story short, but not:
There was SO much to see that I can’t keep track of my thoughts and every reminder of a scene includes a blur of so many people and objects that I can’t specifically recall. Thinking about New York right now stresses me out. I’m not a writer, and putting it in writing just confuses me.
So over all, I was bombarded by information.
At one point, I felt like I lived there because of the lack of attention the people there have to other people.Everyone minded their own business, and walked past me unnoticed. If I were a celebrity I don’t think they would notice, every one blended in with each other. There was so many people surrounding me that I couldn’t focus on a single subject, by the time I was looking at one thing my eyes were already moving to see the next. I was already dizzy looking around. And to make the rapidity of the environment even more vivid, I was trying not to get stepped on by the herd of people treading at my feet. At one point I felt claustrophobic at the idea that if an apocalipse were to happen – where would I run to and hide? There is no solitary ground to hide in, there was always some one at every corner.
So when I thought I was on the path to becoming some one important, staying in new york for a couple days made me realize that I wasn’t even near where I should be, to be where I want to be.
Anyone who ever though I was an over achiever, did not consider the people of New York. I don’t stand near their ability, due to the life they’re surrounded by. So in all, I come short to the people in New York. So that’s my main realization, though I do all I do, it’s not enough where I want to be.
Where I want to be is: A place with so many people that no matter how hard I try I’m always trying harder.
I want to be where my greatest works are my good works, and my good works, are my starting points.
And where I want to be is where if I don’t take care of my self, I’m not trying to stand out, thus I don’t exist, and if I don’t exist I cant communicate to the people I want to be surrounded by which will help me get to my starting points in photogrpahy. So it all trickles down to taking care of who I want to be:
A latin male, that considers his health physically and mentally.
A student who’s pursuing the best positions out there to begin creating starting points that will lead to great works.
and some one who exists, because although there may be so many people in one place, I believe that I can leave a mark – only if I try a little harder than what everyone believes I am already doing.
The people I saw there were leaving a trace of their existence, so when they eventually move forward to the new world, they will be noticed for their presence.
I want to leave a trace of my existence.
So a new journey begins – where I will try to take care of my self and consider my appearance consider my health, and track my calories if necessary,but most importantly, making me the one that stands out in 8,244,910 people and more.